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The Real Deal
I started reliving the things my parents had said. ‘My mum
thinks it’s her fault and that she’s let me down.’ How could I have
done this to her? I had underestimated how much it would hurt
her because I had been so preoccupied with what my dad would
say. Of course, my dad’s words were ringing louder in my ears,
and even though I had expected him to say everything he’d said,
when your father says those things to you in anger it still hurts. I
realised that I had let him down massively.
It was now clear that I couldn’t go back. I had to prove to my
dad that I could make it without him. That was the only thing that
would make sense of what I had done. I had to prove him wrong.
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